usatvline Chapter 188 Faith
Chapter 188 Faith
[It is not shameful to surrender to a strong person with overwhelming strength. As long as I can survive, there will always be a way. I will not lose until I die.
Even if you press your forehead to the ground; even if you are homeless and can only quench your thirst with muddy water; even if others point at your face and spit on you because of stealing.
As long as I can survive, I will win one day, and I will win to show you. I always believe this and keep moving forward.
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The world is unfair. There may not be heaven above your head, and hell may not be under your feet. Gods do not really exist. Everything is just hopeless speculation and imagination of human beings walking in this living hell.
If there really are so-called gods in heaven, they must be blind, deaf and deaf, Yao Yue believes so.
God is not fair, otherwise he would not have let him lose his parents when he was still young, would not have let him become an orphan, would not have let him lose his home, would not have let him wander around, and would not have let him become even worse than a stray dog on the roadside.
Adults say that good and bad things will come one after another, and good things will happen after bad things. As long as he can survive such difficult days and endure these hardships, he will definitely have a future that is more worth looking forward to.
What adults say is never trustworthy, and especially what those who don’t even know how to live their own lives are unreliable.
So Xiao Yue didn't believe what they said.
But the days passed one by one, and he lived one day at a time. He did not die, and he lived like this day after day. Then he began to not want to die. He did not want to die, and he did not want to die in front of those who once looked down on him.
He thought that since he had survived and lived to this day, it meant that he was the kind of person who deserved to live. He was different, and he should continue to live until those people realized that looking down on him would be the worst decision of their lives.
He will become better than anyone else, stronger than anyone else.
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As long as you persist, there will always be a way. As long as you survive, everything will change.
So he snatched food from the mouths of wild dogs, he knelt on the ground and scooped up water mixed with mud to quench his thirst, and he spent night after night under a bridge or under a tree.
In fact, there were days that were slightly better, but that period was too short, too short, just like a dream one night. Before I had time to savor it, it disappeared into the silent night with the appearance of the sun that disturbed my sweet dreams.
So when those days passed, all that remained in my mind were some bad memories.
Being accused by other children, being driven out of temporary residence, being chased by evil spirits, and fleeing in panic and helplessness in the dark night.
He had never realized as clearly as he did at that time how terrible it was to be weak.
It was an unbridgeable chasm, an abyss that could not be filled by begging for mercy or apology. In the face of such power, apart from listening to the strong man's unbridled smile and feeling his own violent heartbeat, it seemed that the only thing left to do was to run desperately.
Perhaps this is why he finally chose to become a Demon Slayer swordsman after a long period of wandering.
He remembered too clearly the fear, the confusion, and the helplessness he had felt, so he tried his best to make himself stronger. He wanted to kill those evil spirits who looked down on him, and make those who once looked down on him recognize him.
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Yao Yue studied very seriously, and no one could deny the efforts he made. He devoted almost all his time and energy to learning and practicing swordsmanship.
But this is not enough.
Far from enough.
He is not strong enough, not powerful enough.
The teacher wasn't special enough to him, the so-called junior fellow who joined later wasn't obedient enough, and those who carried out the mission with him didn't respect him enough.
He lacked so much, so much. So much that he sometimes wondered what would constitute enough. But he could always come up with ideas: if the teacher paid more attention to him, treating him as his sole successor; if his fellow apprentices were more obedient to him, and even better, if they left this place forever, leaving him as the teacher's sole disciple; if those annoying people would honestly kneel before him and apologize.
if......
That would probably be enough.
Would that really be enough? Yao Yue didn't know, but he had to keep living.
So he thought that was enough.
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But as he has always believed, God is not fair and gods do not exist.
Although there are no gods and hell is on earth, evil ghosts do exist. In the past, he was chased by ghosts and could only obey their orders to get a chance to survive, but now, he can reverse the situation. He became the pursuer and can chase after the ghosts.
He became the one who could decide the life and death of ghosts.
If everything were just like this, if things continued along this trajectory, there would be no problem. Although Zenitsu didn't die in the test of Fujikiyama, it didn't matter. A coward like that would soon die somewhere without protection. Sooner or later, the teacher would realize that he was the only one who could truly inherit the mantle of the Sound Pillar, and that the boy simply didn't have the ability to do so.
If only everything could stay the way he wanted.
He will continue to become stronger, stronger than anyone else, slay more demons, and become a famous pillar. By then, everyone will recognize him and bow their heads in front of him. Those who once looked down on him will have to apologize to him with their tails between their legs.
But there is no if.
He was indeed getting stronger, but he just never had any luck.
In the past, he lost his family in ordinary days, fought with wild dogs for lunch he found on the roadside, was caught stealing and thrown out of his home, and encountered man-eating demons in the dark forest.
Later, he was forced to face an incompetent and crying 'junior brother' at his teacher's place. He was looked down upon by higher-level swordsmen when carrying out missions. No matter how hard he tried in his studies, he could not master the most basic Ichi-no-kata.
And now.
Now standing before him was the most terrifying evil spirit.
And he didn't realize how dangerous his situation was until the other party took off the mask.
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This was purely a coincidence. He was just on patrol. At night, in the suburbs, there might be a nest of evil spirits in uninhabited places. Several teams had disappeared in the past few days, and all the lowest-level personnel had died. The Demon Slayer Corps then sent some stronger people, but without exception, there was no news of these team members.
Maybe they would send in free pillars later, but until then, they were the last suicide squads to test the waters.
Xiong Yue didn't have much to say about such a mission. He wanted a higher position, wanted to be a more powerful team member, wanted to be a pillar. To achieve such a wish, completing more missions and killing more demons was the only way.
So he had no problem with it.
If he had to say, he was just curious. He was curious about what kind of ghost could make all the previous team members die without a single one left. Although the team members in recent years have been getting worse and worse, the death of a group of people does not sound very strange, but it is still rare that no one is left alive.