Help! The innocent prince always tries to seduce me clumsily

Chapter 203: Selfish Heart Broken Chanchan Finally Turns Back

The room was silent, with only Chu Shitong's voice as gentle as water.

"Is it too disrespectful to call him His Royal Highness now? Or can I call him... His Majesty in advance?"

Si Jingli was stunned for a long time. Even holding her hand felt so strange. Fear was like a spider lurking in the dark night, crawling up his back from the lower back unknowingly.

"Can you please stop doing this... Chu Shitong..."

He almost pleaded with her, "I definitely don't want the throne to suppress you... I'm just, I'm just too afraid of losing you..."

When Chu Shitong heard that he was still not going to give up, he closed his coat, put on his shoes, and walked a few steps towards the door.

Si Jingli asked in panic: "Where are you going!?"

Chu Shitong stopped but did not turn around, and said, "Take a bath."

Si Jingli gradually came back to his senses and thought that Chu Shitong had finally changed his mind, so he stood up and put on his clothes in a hurry.

"wait for me……"

"That's another price."

Si Jingli paused while putting on his clothes and looked at it in disbelief.

Chu Shitong turned around and looked at him quietly.

"After all, I have to find a way out for myself. If His Royal Highness gets tired of me in the future, at least I have some private money so that I won't die miserably."

Si Jingli explained in a panic: "No! It won't be like this! Do you believe..."

"Your Highness!" Chu Shitong interrupted him, smiling but with cold eyes, "I hope Your Highness will remember our past friendship and not treat me as a toy for others to play with after you get tired of me."

Si Jingli stared at her blankly, his eyes turning red unconsciously.

"Do you really have to say that?"

Is it necessary to use hurtful words to reject his love and treat the feelings between the two of us as an item that can be given away at a price that can be arbitrarily marked?

"It is my honor to serve His Royal Highness. What can I, a defeated general, say?"

Chu Shitong smiled and said, "Your Highness, please go find the Marquis as soon as possible and discuss your marriage with Miss Xu in advance."

Si Jingli said: "I didn't..."

Chu Shitong interrupted: "Miss Xu is pure and innocent, unlike me. She is the one who is suitable for His Royal Highness."

Si Jingli couldn't describe what this feeling was. Every time he wanted to speak, he would be blocked by Chu Shitong's even more cruel words. It was as if the air around him had turned into water from the deep sea, squeezing his lungs all the time and suffocating him.

"I didn't... you know..." He couldn't help but wet his eyes with tears, like a child who was attacked and completely unable to defend himself: "There's nothing between me and her..."

"Your Highness, don't lie to me." Chu Shitong said, "I am just a concubine and a remnant of the previous dynasty. How can I be your queen? You should leave this position to the right person. I think you and Miss Xu are a perfect match. I wonder if Your Highness is satisfied with this marriage?"

She naturally knew that Si Jingli and Xu Bingqing had nothing.

But once the killing begins, the heart is broken.

All those things that have happened in the past and may cause harm will be picked out and exaggerated, using them as sharper knife tips to stab the other party and oneself.

Chu Shitong approached him step by step.

"When did His Royal Highness and Miss Xu meet? I saw you two chatting and laughing in the pavilion that day, and I guess His Royal Highness was with her quite a lot during the time I was away."

At this moment, Chu Shitong's step-by-step approach made Si Jingli feel a little timid, as if every step closer would bring huge harm that could not be reversed.

"No……"

Chu Shitong didn't listen to his explanation at all, and said to himself: "Your Highness refuses to admit it, do you think I will do something stupid because of this? How could that be? When I was confined by you, I already knew my identity, so I naturally wouldn't struggle in vain."

She used the greatest malicious speculation to slander him: "How far has the relationship between His Royal Highness and Miss Xu progressed? Has he held her hand? Has he kissed her? Has His Royal Highness slept with her..."

"Chu Shitong!!!"

Si Jingli finally couldn't bear it anymore, and interrupted her with a roar with red eyes.

"What do you think of me?! What do you think of my feelings for you? If there really was something, why would I have been searching for you for a whole year?!"

"Perhaps His Royal Highness is not yet fed up with it."

Chu Shitong's plain words completely pissed off Si Jingli.

A surge of blood rushed to his heart. He was almost mad with anger at these words that completely misinterpreted his feelings. He felt hatred and helplessness in his heart.

He hated it because Chu Shitong interpreted his feelings into something that could be measured.

He was helpless because he knew why Chu Shitong wanted to do so.

Faced with Chu Shitong's words that could kill people, he didn't want to give in, nor did he want to give in. He had finally survived that difficult year, and he really didn't want to go back to that powerless time.

He wanted power, the power to keep her by his side forever.

And Chu Shitong could also feel his persistence.

Since she couldn't do anything to Si Jingli like she did to Will, she simply did what she was best at, which was killing people with her mouth.

"How long have you been with me, His Royal Highness?" Chu Shitong snapped his fingers and said calmly, "Almost three years."

Si Jingli looked at her sadly, as if he had a thousand words to say, but he couldn't utter a single word.

Chu Shitong said: "I don't know how others see me now. His Highness the Crown Prince has confined me to Prince Qi's mansion as a forbidden delicacy. In the eyes of others, everything I have is ruined."

"I just... put you under house arrest." Si Jingli said weakly, "I didn't really let them spread those words..."

“It makes no difference.”

Chu Shitong said: "I can no longer imagine how the world will view me if you marry me as your queen."

Si Jingli said: "I will protect you..."

Chu Shitong suddenly raised her voice and interrupted him. She had interrupted him countless times tonight.

"If everyone in the world knew that I am a woman, a remnant of the previous dynasty, then the past between me and His Royal Highness the Crown Prince might also become known to everyone. I don't know what they would say about me, and how they would laugh at me."

Si Jingli's eyelashes trembled.

"What are you laughing at..."

"Laughing at me for being shameless." Chu Shitong looked at him, "Laughing at me for having been married to you when I was less than 17 years old and had no official status, and for having shamelessly been with you for more than two years under the name of a man."

Si Jingli's heart ached violently, and he looked at Chu Shitong in pain and confusion.

"Who said you don't have a legitimate status? I wanted to give you a legitimate status. I wanted to marry you all the time! It was you who was always busy and refused to marry me no matter what. Why did it become so absurd and taboo when I mentioned our past relationship?"

How far would she push him before she would give up?

Seeing Si Jingli about to collapse, Chu Shitong said softly: "But isn't that the truth? Your Highness must be regretting this, right?"

Si Jingli's whole body was trembling with pain. He knew that Chu Shitong was best at killing people and destroying their hearts. It was just that they had been in love before and Chu Shitong seldom said anything to him. Now that he was being ridiculed by her like this, he felt that it would be better to be stabbed twice.

She didn't hit or scold him, but every word she said was like a cold steel knife, scraping his bones and cutting his flesh. The mental torture was like slow slicing, more painful than death.

Si Jingli no longer dared to respond.

He was afraid that any words he received would become a knife that he could not bear and pierce his heart in the next second.

But Chu Shitong would not let him go. As long as he did not give up fighting for the throne, Chu Shitong would not let him go.

She came in front of him, looked at him calmly and said.

"Your Highness must have regretted falling in love with a monster like me who is neither male nor female."

Si Jingli's eyes widened suddenly. This simple sentence seemed to crush his heart! The extreme heartache and the violent ups and downs in his heart made him open his mouth but couldn't say a word. He could only watch her, bitter tears falling drop by drop, in pain and entanglement like a prisoner waiting to be burned to death.

The long and endless torture, the dark despair, and the gradual suffocation process as they come overwhelmingly.

He was not afraid that Chu Shitong would slander and hurt him, but he was afraid that Chu Shitong would hurt himself.

Because I love her so much, hurting her hurts much more than hurting him.

Chu Shitong was such a vicious person that he would definitely hurt himself three times more cruelly than others.

This sentence almost killed Si Jingli.

He couldn't stand it anymore, he really couldn't stand it anymore, he was going crazy, he was going to be driven crazy by those words.

He grasped her sleeve tremblingly, as if using up the last bit of strength in his body, and his voice was hoarse with pain as he suppressed his tears.

"Chu Shitong, do you really have to do this?"

Chu Shitong knew what he was asking, and it couldn't be a literal meaning.

He still didn't want to give up the throne. Despite the pain, he still wanted her to give up and force him.

But Chu Shitong didn't want to give up.

Someone has to compromise, but that person will never be her.

"Your Highness, I am only telling the truth."

Chu Shitong sighed softly, took his hand, took out a jade ring from his hand and placed it in his hand.

That was the jade bracelet that Madam Hou gave her on the day of her wedding, representing the granddaughter-in-law of the Mu family.

"It is not appropriate for me to keep this bracelet. Your Highness, please give it to someone else."

Si Jingli was in so much pain that he couldn't speak. He just stared at her with tearful eyes, and held the jade ring in her palm stubbornly, refusing to move it away.

Chu Shitong said, "Why is your Highness doing this?"

She was like a merciful god encountering a crying child. She reached out and hugged Si Jingli, patting his back gently and coaxing him affectionately and tenderly.

"Someone will wear this bracelet, but it won't be me. It would be better for His Royal Highness to wait until he ascends the throne to get married. As for the wedding ceremony in Quanzhou... no one cares."

The person in his arms suddenly felt weak in the legs and almost fell to the ground.

Chu Shitong supported him, "Your Highness is too careless. If you fall, I will be heartbroken. After all, I still have to rely on you in the future. If I offend you, I will definitely have a hard time in the future."

She stroked his face, wiped away the tears from his eyes, and looked at his desperate expression.

"There is one more thing. Starting from tomorrow when the emperor forces the emperor to abdicate, the relationship between me and His Royal Highness will completely change. In order to be a qualified concubine, His Royal Highness, please forget everything that happened between you and me. The past feelings will disappear like smoke, and we will never have to go back to the past."

When the last sentence was uttered, Si Jingli could no longer hold back his tears. His body seemed to have lost all support and he slowly knelt in front of Chu Shitong.

Chu Shitong pretended to support his shoulders.

"Your Highness, please get up quickly. What are you doing? Aren't you going to the bath?" He didn't forget to poke her again. "As long as Your Highness gives me more valuable things, I am still confident that I can serve you comfortably."

Si Jingli buried his head in her waist, his shoulders shaking violently, looking extremely pitiful.

"Do not……"

"Does His Royal Highness have any instructions?"

When he raised his head, his face was so wet with tears that he couldn't see the number of lines. His collar was wet. Only his pair of bloodshot eyes revealed desperate hatred.

"Chu Shitong, I was wrong..."

Chu Shitong said: "I don't understand what your Highness means. Where did you go wrong?"

Si Jingli collapsed and hugged her and cried, "I was wrong! I was really wrong! I don't want the throne anymore! I don't want anything! Please don't be like this! Don't forget our past! You are going to kill me!!!"

In the year that Chu Shitong disappeared, he has been relying on memories of the past to keep going until now.

But now that Chu Shitong is back alive, she wants to forget everything they had in the past.

If this is the case, what is the point of his persistence and deep affection?

If Chu Shitong was no longer Chu Shitong! She was forced to become someone he didn't recognize! Then what was the point of him wanting the throne? What was the point of him begging all the gods and Buddhas to get her back?

He initially just prayed for her to live.

But he was too greedy.

The first time he saw Chu Shitong at the palace gate, he greedily wanted to keep Chu Shitong by his side forever.

A greedy person will be punished, so he is now in agony worse than death, and he wishes he could turn back time and cut his former self into pieces!

She has already come back alive, why is she still asking for so much? Is it enough to force her to death?

Si Jingli was so frightened by Chu Shitong's words that he collapsed. He hugged Chu Shitong and cried and admitted his mistake, with every word he spoke accompanied by tears.

Chu Shitong patted him on the back gently, like an understanding elder.

"Stop crying, stop crying. Your Highness, do you know you are wrong?"

Si Jingli nodded frantically. Even with this look of grievance that was pushed to the extreme, that pretty face still made people's heart beat faster.

Chu Shitong said, "But His Royal Highness is going to force the emperor to abdicate tomorrow. The Marquis probably asked you to go to discuss this matter."

Si Jingli seemed to suddenly remember something, and stumbled to his feet from the ground, looking somewhat out of consciousness.

"I...I'll go tell my grandfather right now...cancel tomorrow's plan..."

"Put some clothes on and go."

Si Jingli seemed to be shocked and stunned. After hearing this, he put on his clothes in a mess and went out without looking back.

As soon as he left, Chu Shitong stopped pretending.

All that deceptive tenderness and self-deprecation immediately disappeared.

She raised her hand and called Rushuang, giving orders as if she were back to the days when she held power.

"Go, find someone to follow the prince. If what he said is different from what he said to me, come back and let me know. Is there any news about Will?"