usatvline Chapter 14 Miss, Expect, Look Forward to
Chapter 14 Miss, Expect, Look Forward to
From his rebirth till now, he was most worried about two things.
First, he was afraid that this was just a dream.
If this was really a dream, he hoped he would never wake up from it.
Second, he didn't know how to face his parents.
The guilt from his past life was like a Five Finger Mountain pressing down on him, making it hard for him to breathe.
In the name of making his parents proud, he buried his head in the campus like an ostrich, trying to cover up his mistakes and return home after making preparations.
But now, looking at his father standing not far away.
He suddenly realized that what he was worried about was nothing.
……
Pan Yinian, when he rushed to the door of the teaching department.
Dad Pan Mingshan was standing in front of his desk, slightly hunched over, his face full of awkwardness and uneasiness.
In his hands, he was still holding two new stones that he was reluctant to take out, but Director Pan forced them back.
Director Pan sat opposite, his face dark. He recounted Pan Yinian's misdeeds in a slightly exaggerated manner, and finally said with a hint of warning:
"What Pan Yinian did was extremely despicable."
"Putting him on academic probation and recording it on his file is already leniency outside the law."
"If we continue to let things go, Pan Yinian will only end up being fired..."
The punishment has clearly been decided, but Director Pan still said this.
Pan Yinian understands the ins and outs of this.
The school can take more initiative by making the matter sound more serious in front of the parents.
But this time, the Black-Faced God went a little too far.
Old Pan was silent for a moment, then pleaded, "Leader, this is a matter of great importance to my child's life. Could you please be flexible?"
My dad is a very face-conscious person.
No matter how difficult or embarrassing life is, you should always walk with your back straight and your head held high.
But now, his waist was bent and his head drooped.
Looking at his father like this, Pan Yinian suddenly felt very distressed.
Without waiting for the Black-Faced God to speak again, Pan Yinian knocked on the door and walked in.
"dad……"
Pan Yinian walked to his father and tugged at his father's sleeve, which was already frayed at the edges.
Old Pan turned around and slapped Pan Yinian in the face.
Pan Yinian was stunned for a moment.
It's not uncomfortable, nor is it aggrieved.
Rather, it is the excitement and joy of reuniting after a long separation.
So happy...I want to cry.
In his previous life, after his father passed away, he missed two things the most.
First, to eat the meal cooked by my father again.
In particular, the spareribs stewed by my father are so glutinous and fragrant that you can even suck out oil from the bones.
He wished that as soon as he entered the door, he could smell the aroma of meat stewed by his father; as soon as he turned his head, he could see his father's busy figure.
However, no matter how many times he returned home or looked back, all he saw was an empty yard.
Second, he wanted to be beaten again.
When Lao Pan was young, he had a very bad temper. He would often stick his neck out and yell at him, and when he got angry, he would even hit him a few times.
But since he turned 16, Lao Pan never hit him again, and even rarely yelled at him.
After Lao Pan passed away, he felt extremely remorseful every time he thought of his own absurdity and rebelliousness. He wished Lao Pan would beat him again, even if it meant hanging him on a tree and whipping him.
But these are just a luxury after all.
Some people say that being beaten by parents is a blessing.
When he was young, he thought it was nonsense, but after Lao Pan passed away, he understood.
Some people say that father is a mountain or a wall, standing between us and death.
When he was young, he didn't understand, but after Lao Pan passed away, he knew what it meant for the wall to collapse and the mountain to crumble.
Some people say that small sticks take, big sticks go.
But at this moment, he was reluctant to hide, and even more reluctant to leave.
Because he had been looking forward to this slap for too long.
Now one of my wishes has finally been fulfilled.
This kind of beauty that was lost and regained made Pan Yinian want to laugh happily.
But as I laughed, tears started to fall.
Old Pan, who hadn't seen his child cry for a long time, suddenly froze in place, his hands hanging in the air, not knowing where to put them.
He raised his hand, trying to wipe away the tears on Pan Yinian's face.
But looking at the bruises on Pan Yinian's face, he was worried that he had hurt Pan Yinian.
I wanted to hold Pan Yinian in my arms, but I was afraid that it would provoke the child's rebellious psychology.
Seeing his father's face full of heartache and anxiety, Pan Yinian could no longer hold back. He knelt down in front of Old Pan with a bang, hugged Old Pan's legs, and cried heart-wrenchingly.
Old Pan, who hadn't been hugged by a child for many years, couldn't hold it in anymore.
Hot tears slowly overflowed from my eyes.
"Don't cry, don't cry, Dad is here, Dad is here..."
Old Pan didn't know how to comfort Pan Yinian, so he could only hug Pan Yinian, stroke Pan Yinian's head, and repeat this sentence over and over again.
But this action, this sentence.
For those who have not felt fatherly love for many years, it is the most heart-wrenching.
This time, Pan Yinian cried even harder, gasping for breath.
It was as if I wanted to cry out all the grievances and guilt.
"Dad, can we not go to the chemical plant?"
Pan Yinian wiped away his tears and looked at Old Pan pleadingly.
These sudden words made Old Pan freeze in place.
"What nonsense are you talking about, kid? If I don't go there, how am I going to make money?"
Old Pan shook his head.
Not only did he not plan to leave, he also planned to take on the job of guarding the gate at night.
In this way, I can earn more money to help Pan Yinian pay for his repeat studies.
After all, no one knows the character of this bastard in his family better than him. There is no chance for him to pass the college entrance examination this year.
He seems sensible now. If he repeats a year, maybe there is still hope.
"Dad, listen to me, okay?"
"Dad, I heard that working in a chemical factory for a long time can easily lead to cancer."
"Dad, I still expect you to take care of me for the rest of my life."
"Dad, I'm scared. I'm really scared. If you get that disease, I'll be dead..."
"Dad, I heard that the top scorer in our city's college entrance exam last year received a 20,000 yuan bonus! Even the second and third place finishers received several thousand yuan."
"Dad, if I can get this bonus, will you stop going to the chemical plant?"
"Dad, during the holidays, I can still work part-time or set up a stall to earn money for tuition..."
"Dad, I had a very long dream. In the dream, I was an ungrateful brat. I was so angry that you were hospitalized, got lung cancer, and passed away. Even Mom was so angry that she drank pesticide, and I became a wild child without parents..."
"Dad, let's not go to the chemical plant, okay?"
Pan Yinian became anxious.
Totally anxious.
My eyes turned red with anxiety.
I was so anxious that I couldn't breathe...
[This may sound a bit long-winded, but these are the words Xiaoxian wants to say to his father even in his dreams.
But... there will never be another chance.
Hey...if you can, go have a few more drinks with dad and be a kid for a few more days.