Traveling through time, I'm making pancakes in Warhammer

Chapter 284 Abraham

After hearing Howard's evaluation of herself, the nun did not get angry or refute, but became even more frustrated.

She moved further into the sofa. Her spine had never been bent like this before. She looked down at her knees and almost curled up into a ball.

If a kitten or a cute girl did this, people would undoubtedly feel pity for her, but this is a combat nun. Even if she made such a move, she would only become a tighter ball of muscle. No one knows if she will roll over and crush herself to death if she touches this muscle ball.

Howard stood up from his seat again and took another can of drink and placed it in front of the nun.

"But people change," Howard added. "Now that you can proactively ask this question and reflect on your own actions, you are already much better than them."

"What should I do?" asked the nun.

"You are a believer of the Emperor of God. Why don't you ask your God but ask me?" Howard asked back with a smile, but there was no malice or sarcasm in his tone. He was just simply curious about the choice of this combat nun.

"The Divine Emperor cannot guide us in all matters. I... I also want to know your opinion on this issue." The nun whispered, "Just like what you said to Miss Mei."

"I'm not qualified to tell you what to do," Howard added, again without malice, just a disclaimer.

"Can't you just treat our conversation as..." The nun paused. She searched her brain for a long time before finding the right words. Then she gestured and said, "Just treat it as an ordinary chat, right?"

So Howard laughed softly twice, then he found himself a can of unfermented juice from the freezer, opened it but didn't drink it, just to listen to the sound of bubbles surging and bursting.

After listening to the bubbling sound for a while, Howard asked a question:

"Sister, what do you think the meaning of your fight is?"

"Of course it's for the Empire." The nun answered this question without hesitation.

"What is the empire?" Howard asked.

"The Empire is!...is..." But this question stumped the nun, and she suddenly felt a little terrified.

What is an empire? This should be a question that she could answer correctly without thinking, but when she really started to think about it, she suddenly had no answer.

"Let's change the question. What do you think the empire consists of?" Howard asked.

This is a question the nun can answer: "Humanity!"

"What is a human being?" Howard asked.

The nun was unable to answer this question again. The Empire's definition of a human being was that even if there was no skull mutation, one was still considered a human being. But no matter how stupid the nun was, she knew that this was not the answer Howard wanted.

So she admitted it directly; "I don't know, please tell me."

"Do you think the miners in the mines, the farmers in the fields, and the workers in the factories are human beings?" Howard did not give an answer, but asked another question.

"of course!"

"Do you think Astartes are human?"

"They are a group of monsters!" The Battle Sister answered immediately. However, after giving this answer, she hesitated for a moment and added: "But they are also human."

"Is a Primarch considered human?" Howard asked. In case the Sister didn't understand what a Primarch meant, he added, "It's the Emperor's offspring. For example, the Great Imperial Regent and the Lord of Ultramar, is he human?"

"I think so..." the nun replied.

"Are traitors considered human beings? Those soldiers and Astartes who betrayed the Empire and defected to Chaos, are they considered human beings?" Howard asked.

"Of course not!" the nun said, "They have already given up the dignity and honor of being human. They themselves don't even acknowledge their own human identity, so how can they be considered human?"

"So, the Emperor is human?" Howard asked finally.

This question silenced the Sister. After a long moment, she spoke: "Although... although we believe in the Emperor as a god, I know that the Emperor is different from the Chaos forces we are fighting... The Emperor himself once said that he is not a god..."

Finally, the nun gave a firm answer: "But I believe that the Emperor is both a God and a human. He is undoubtedly a member of our human race. Even if he is a God, he is still the God of mankind!"

"Then, for whom are you fighting? For the Emperor? For the Primarch? For the Astartes? Or for something else?"

"Don't answer right away." Howard stopped the nun just as she was about to speak. "My question might be a little suggestive. Don't rush to answer. Think first, question my question, and don't give an answer within my framework. I don't want to trick you into giving me the answer I want. I want to hear your honest thoughts."

Then the Sister began to think for real. Then, carefully and formally, she looked Howard in the eye and said, "We fight for the Emperor, but the Emperor fights for us, for all of humanity."

"Yes, Sister," Howard said, "but when we first met, you didn't seem to understand this. War is a means, not an end, and you still don't understand why we are fighting."

"If I really need to give you some advice, I would just say..." Howard responded to the nun's gaze, "Don't become a demon in order to fight the demons. That will only lead to you falling into the demon's trap. Even if you use demonic means to expel the demons, the total number of demons in this world will not change."

"I think this must be what the Lord of Mankind is thinking..." Howard finally took a sip of the juice. He held the jar in his hand and looked through the window at the rolling clouds of Karenya.

"If a person abandons his humanity, he is no longer a human being. He is still persevering because he is persevering for the sake of humanity. He is not persevering for those born great superhumans, but for the countless ordinary, kind, and insignificant human beings. He endures torture for the brilliance in human nature that distinguishes humans from demons. But if even humans themselves give up the bottom line of being human, then what is the meaning of his perseverance?"

Howard said this to the nun, but also to himself.

Isn't he sticking to the bottom line of being a human being?

After coming to this universe, what he experienced, what he lost, and what he gained.

He has countless reasons and motivations to abandon his humanity and become a bad person.

He held fast to his principles, but what was the result? He lost his peace, his friends, and was cursed.

And as long as he is willing to fall, as long as he is willing to take that step, as long as he throws away this damn human identity and completely embraces chaos, everything will be very simple and easy.

He is not a fool, how could he not understand this?

But he still chose the most difficult path and has come to where he is today.

Because he is a human being.

He never thought that Freya, Nurgle or any other messy things were his bargaining chips or the confidence for him to take those risky actions.

At most, these exist as a double-lose trump card that he uses to self-destruct and drag the opponent down with him when he faces a crisis that he cannot resolve no matter what.

Many of the problems he faces seem to be able to be solved by the power of the devil, but he is very cautious about the power of the devil.

If the devil wants to buy a person's soul, he must first make him addicted and dependent.

Just because I don’t have a soul doesn’t mean I don’t have to pay a price, but are so many destructive powers going to hell just for my little pancake?

he does not know.

But he knew that only when he gave up would he lose completely.